BLOGGED: When God says, “No”

Sometimes, God says “No”.
Moses petitioned God multiple times to let him enter the Promised Land.
God said, “No.”
Paul asked God to remove the thorn from his flesh.
God said, “No.”
I fasted and prayed, desperately pleading with God to soften my husband’s heart about the divorce.
God said, “No.”
We begged God to breathe life into Baby Samuel, to heal Baby Levi from brain cancer.

God said, “No.”
So many answers that don’t meet my expectations of God.
Trying to understand the full nature of God and the reasons He does what He does.
Knowing I never will, this side of Heaven.
Like Moses, Paul, and a great cloud of witnesses, I believe God. I believe He is who He says He is:
kind, merciful, loving, long-suffering, gentle, mighty, mysterious…
And, I trust Him in the No.
I praise Him there.
I thank Him for His mystery.
If I could explain Him fully, He would be as small as I am.
I surrender to His overwhelming capacity to baffle me.
It is in the surprises, the unknown, the unfathomable that I find His Yes:
Yes, I am holding you.
Yes, I am loving you.
Yes, I am healing you.
Yes, I am protecting and providing for you.
Yes, I am bringing about good from this.
Yes, I am worth it.
Yes, I AM.
These all died in faith without having received the promises, but they saw them from a distance, greeted them, and confessed that they were foreigners and temporary residents on the earth. Now those who say such things make it clear that they are seeking a homeland. If they were thinking about where they came from, they would have had an opportunity to return. But they now desire a better place — a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for He has prepared a city for them. (Hebrews11:13-16 HCSB)